Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Yesterday, election day, I rode the downtown three train from 96th street to times square, heading towards eighth street and my weekly writing workshop. I’d cast my ballot hours earlier, but the experience of doing so is with me still. It sounds corny, but I wanted so deeply the outcome that, ultimately, came to pass, that I think I filled a little bit of my soul into the empty circle beside the name Barack Obama. Anyways, the importance of the election was on my mind as I stepped onto the three train and plopped down on the slippery blue bench. The car was crowded, peppered with difference – the woman in tweed pants and sneakers, the heels of her work shoes poking out from her handbag; the man in his carharts coming from one of the many construction jobs clogging up the UWS; and a kid in a football uniform, shoulder pads and all, smelling of sweat and looking nervously at the subway map posted across the aisle from him. I glanced at each of them, careful not to let my eyes rest too long on any one thing, but the woman looked up from her blackberry and caught my eye, forcing it upwards. There I saw it, posted in between the ads for 1 800 DIVORCE and Dr. Maury’s laser skin correction:

"The only freedom deserving the name, is that of pursuing our own good in our own way, so long as we do not attempt to deprive others of theirs, or impede their efforts to obtain it. Each is the proper guardian of his own health, whether bodily, or mental and spiritual. Mankind are greater gainers by suffering each other to live as seems good to themselves, than by compelling each to live as seems good to the rest."

I’ve read this before – Freshman philosophy I believe, but never felt it so pertinent to my life as I do now. Here it is, republican and democratic ideals fused into one graceful form. And isn’t that what we are striving for? A balance of self care and respect for others, the kind which inherently affects a coming together of different political parties, different races, different places, and different ways of seeing, not with the aim of conversion or blame, but of common resolve to live peacefully and to strive for a greater understanding.

Yes, I thought as the doors dinged shut at 72nd street and the train moved on, moved forward through the darkness as will we all, with Obama standing beside us at our collective helm. Yes we can.

2 comments:

Chad Smith said...

Yeah, New York City subway cars really bug me out. There's a whole culture to them, it's weird. When you step into that car, it's like two worlds. In one world, the world of the the tangible, the actual subway car, people are careful not to step on each other's feet, careful not to hold eye contact for too long, careful to say "Excuse me" should they step on each other's feet, and careful not to touch too many metal poles if they can help it.

And then there's the other world, the world of the psychic. In that world, you're wondering what the fuck that smell is. In that world, you wonder who the freak sitting all the way at the end of the car is. In that world you derive some weird satisfaction after sitting down in a person's seat whose just gotten up, and the seat is still warm. In that world, you can't stand all these weird people of all shapes and sizes and imperfections sucking up all your air. In that world, you're wondering why these tourists are speaking so loudly. Don't they get it? and if all these people don't move, you're never going to be able to get out of the train, and it's your stop! And once you do get to the door, you can barely step out because this guy on the platform is trying to board the car prematurely, before everyone has gotten out of it, and you're saying, "Let us out first, asshole."

Jamila said...

A Barnes & Noble ad?
I think I've seen the same one...

I tend to read subway ads when I know someone is staring at me, and I guess I like to humor them and let them stare and figure out whatever it is they are trying to figure out, which always stops when you look at them and they look away...

In Italy, there was no "looking away". Staring was shameless. It was both honest and primitive. I'm not sure which matters.

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